Tuesday, June 14, 2011


I am an outdoor person.
I love what nature provides and really enjoy being surrounded by greenery. Thus, any outdoor activities are something I really look forward to.

One of the best things I found outdoors is jogging.
Jogging is the best stress reliever for me. Back in college, I spend 1 hour every Saturday morning just to jog a few rounds at my TARC hostel compound then another 2 rounds around TBR. My roommate even think that I'm crazy with running around. I think that running is just in me.

When I start running,
all that is left in mind is forward - the urge to keep running. During any jogs, I tend to push myself. I don't need to think anything other than keep running. All my problems seem irrelevant. I just keep telling myself "just a little bit more". The "little bit more" meant a lot more actually. I can run another 30 minutes non-stop when I tell myself so. Another thing is that I feel free when I'm running. (Maybe too much of Forest Gump - Run Forest, Run!)

Unfortunately, very few of my friends enjoy jogging.
Many of them prefer tea instead. Though I enjoy jogging alone, it would be nice if there is someone to jog with. We can share as we go. For now, I'll just have to go on alone till I see somebody who would raise his/her hand to tag along.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011


The reality in this world is always cruel.
It never sympathizes the unfortunate nor it will be generous to the poor. It is so cold that it send chills to the heart. It shows us how lonely we really are. Sometimes, reality sends a rain of needle piercing through one's heart that it hurt so much, everything will just go numb.

In reality, we should realise,
that every individual have their own lives, their own problems, their own issues. Humans are selfish being. Perhaps that is why we need godly figures that can demonstrate selflessness to the world - someone or something that we can rely on. How about the atheist and non-believers? Well, they have to rely on themselves. If they rely on someone else (including family members, the other half, best friends, etc etc) too much, they will soon discover that they can't solve their own problems and these people will not (even if they can) help them out.

Reality will not follow ideals.
Life is not always as planned - things can go wrong anytime, anywhere, anyhow. You can plan your life anyhow you like but in the end it really depends. When a plan go wrong, we have no other options but to tweak ourselves to blend in. That's one thing that many failed to do. Human often think that they are the being born to lead (if not conquer) other living beings - having the brains and capability to do stuff. We fret when things don't go as planned because we aren't prepared for it.

Although reality is not always bad,
we must prepare ourselves for the worst. We need to solve our own problems. We need to stay up strong against all odds. Even though sometimes we feel cold at night, we need to embrace ourselves with our own hands and tell ourselves that it will be okay. This is because we are all we have and if we lose that, we lose it all. Thus, we must not give ourselves up and must get through whatever life throws at us!

Friday, June 3, 2011

Journey Week 1

Of all the emails that I've sent to all the sponsors, none replied. MCA Youth have not replied either and apparently their phone is out of service. So, there are no ways I can contact them. Man, this i getting more and more frustrating.

Everybody at home seems to have lost faith.
Dad and mom are already telling Kelvin that I'm not getting a scholarship. I thought parents should be more supportive. They only thing that they see in me is a kid who procrastinates and doesn't do any good. Each time I'm sitting in front of my computer, only one thing come in their minds - I am playing games AGAIN.

How can I end up being so screwed?