This 3 weeks have been really tiring...
Classes from 8am to 3pm everyday... Replacement classes on the past 2 Saturdays... 112 hours of class in 16 days... Test 4 is around the corner... AS is 3 1/2 months away...
Today is the most significant day that proved I'm at my very limit.
Slept 7/10 of the time during class. I've tried my very best to keep my eyes open but refused. Besides, the boredom is back to haunt me... Just like during Form 5... During Bio practical, Bo aka Yen Yee asked me why my answer is so long just for a question. The only thing that came to my mind and also how I responded was telling her, "Your happiness have found you. I've yet to find mine and this (pointing at the practical book) is all I have for now. I hope my happiness will come with it."
When I was walking back to hostel,
I've heard a diploma student saying he count everyday till the end of his course and he feels happy because each time he count is like one day down 'x'day(when you don't know the value, just use 'x') to go. At that instance, a thought struck me. "My life sucks, I'll never be happy. Not until I've tasted success". It just keep me going on...
However, the stress is getting the best of me...
I'M PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY TIRED...
I wish someone will call and ask how am I...
*Just another 10 months to decide my fate. No matter what, i must stay on. Regardless the fatigue, stress, anything...*
Classes from 8am to 3pm everyday... Replacement classes on the past 2 Saturdays... 112 hours of class in 16 days... Test 4 is around the corner... AS is 3 1/2 months away...
Today is the most significant day that proved I'm at my very limit.
Slept 7/10 of the time during class. I've tried my very best to keep my eyes open but refused. Besides, the boredom is back to haunt me... Just like during Form 5... During Bio practical, Bo aka Yen Yee asked me why my answer is so long just for a question. The only thing that came to my mind and also how I responded was telling her, "Your happiness have found you. I've yet to find mine and this (pointing at the practical book) is all I have for now. I hope my happiness will come with it."
When I was walking back to hostel,
I've heard a diploma student saying he count everyday till the end of his course and he feels happy because each time he count is like one day down 'x'day(when you don't know the value, just use 'x') to go. At that instance, a thought struck me. "My life sucks, I'll never be happy. Not until I've tasted success". It just keep me going on...
However, the stress is getting the best of me...
I'M PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY TIRED...
I wish someone will call and ask how am I...
*Just another 10 months to decide my fate. No matter what, i must stay on. Regardless the fatigue, stress, anything...*
dun u think tat u gav lots of stress to ursef?
ReplyDeleteeven cant be juz relax all the while,
but u stil hav to relax ok?
study til midnight isnt mean tat u can learn everythg..
mayb the thg u looking for now,
is not the thg u wan in the future..
i mean mayb u will feel tat u lost sumthg important in ur study life,
in future..