Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Doing it Right... In the Wrong way!

I'm seriously in to set the score straight with my A-level.
Imma re-sit Physics, work my ass on Bio, and study like mad.
Mad is probably the most appropriate word to describe my life now...

Waking up at 7.35am every morning,
go college at 8am,
attend class till 2-3pm,
study at library/ citc till 4-5pm,
go back hostel and sleep till 7-8pm,
eat dinner, bath, etc then back to hostel do tutorials till 2-3am.
Sometimes imsonia till 4am.

My average sleep time is about 5 hours a day...
I've hanged my basketball shoes for the better...
Play maximum 3 hours of Football Manager (hey, I gotta release stress somehow)
Set a minimum of one past year to be done per day...

Sounds like a freaking geek?
I think so...
But considering the reciprocal, I'm doing everything right!
There'll be no room for Bs or anything below A now...
4 A* will be within grasp if I continue to push myself this way...

There are a few side effects too...
I'm worned out due to lack of sleep (not that I don't want but somehow, I just can't sleep),
my body aches because I've given up on exercising (that's what happen when an active person stop doing exercises right?),
And I'm pretty tensed up...

Like the title suggests,
I'm doing it right but in the wrong way...
ps: Who cares if its the right or wrong way? As long as it is the way to acchive what I'm aiming, that is my way!

Monday, August 23, 2010

ArSe Result

The day that I've waited so eagerly for the past 2 months had finally came.
My AS result was out last last Friday...
Biology - a
Chemistry - a
Physics - b
Mathematics - a
General Papers - b
Worst still, I've gotten my breakdown last Friday.
Bio - AAC
Chem - AAA
Phy - ACA
Maths - AA
Bio was quite expected as I've totally flunked my paper 3. Physics paper 2 was the killer. Initially, I thought that I've got CBA, BAB or CAB. But freaking yes la. I've got a freaking C for paper 2!! Any results ranging from AAC, CAA, ABB, BAB, BBA or BAB could have been an a!!!
The final blow was just about 2 hours ago..
Ms. Tong came in and showed us the threshold mark for all Physics paper.
The threshold for paper 2?
A - 32, B -28, and the following grades are all 4 marks away.
The total mark is 60.
For that instance, this is what that went through my brain just now:
"You fucking retard! You can't even get half of the mark for your fucking paper 2! What the fuck is wrong with that fucking brain of yours?"
I've no idea whether to laugh my ass out or jump down the river...
Just like SPM, I've flopped... AGAIN...
Is it me or my life had always been like the 'lebih kurang' state?
I'm always in the "so close yet so far" situation. I've told myself over and over again - I'm just not giving 100% on studying. Hell, I did.. Seriously... I've given my best and still, I'm a major let down.
Probably for anyone in my class who got my result would be seraphically happy.
Well, that is for them. Each person who congratulate me is equivalent to a kick in the backside. Sound arrogant eh? Guess that's just me. I'm not some holy man who accepts what comes in place nor I'm a optimist who sees everything on the brighter side.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

5 more days...

AS result gonna be out in another 5 days...
Eh, nono...
Should be in another 4 days (Since its 2.35am in the morning).
Man, really gan jiong. I was dreaming bout it the other day but I've forgotten what I got. LOL.

With A2 nearing and the result coming out, Mr.Insomnia is back for a visit.
Its really hard to sleep unless I tire myself very very much with playing sports. There's a price to pay though. My body is aching like hell and I'm darn tired even during class.

Looking at the A2 syllabus,
there are loads of stuff to remember, understand and practice. Kinda worried whether there's enough time or not. The other classes seem so much faster than us.

Damn damn damn...